Can you still sleep when the wind blows?

Years Ago .........

I just found out that another friend of mine was diagnosed with depression. It is definitely more than just a medical condition. It is a social problem. I think there are many more unknown cases of depression. Some people have it without even knowing they are in the rut.

I hate the way the world tags/categorizes people. Stereotyping is so prevalent, it is now part and parcel of life. It is really quite disgusting how stereotyping can make people feel bad about themselves. It is also quite funny coz u see, a depressed person is already having such a bad time. Imagine how he/she will feel when he/she knows that he/she is officially diagnosed with this mental illness. He/she must be thinking, "Great, I am officially mad." How 'great' can that feel eh? Therefore, I feel that it is probably better not to seek medical help if u know what is coming your way. Someone once told me that you can work yourself outta depression. I guess that is rather true.

On the other spectrum of mental health, there are also people out there who think that the sky is the limit. "It's all in your head! Success starts from you!" and all that ... crap. Sometimes people hard sell these ideas it actually becomes a social obsession, for I dont know what. i.e. what's the point of achieving so much worldly things? Sometimes, I think people come up with lots of nobel reasons to justify their actions and their drive to work and achieve. But honestly, isnt everyone doing it for money, stability, self, own family etc? Therefore, it makes it easier to marvel at Christ's purity and perfection as a person when he was on earth.

Enough negative thoughts for the day/night. Night.

Something to perk up your day. =)

If I had 1 million dollars...

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZepXqnHAkd0

I havent been blogging lately coz there have been many thoughts going through my head. I thought it would be encouraging to myself as well as to those who read this blog, to just post some motivating and inspiring stuff.

I have 2 incidents to share about how God has shown that he is real and really there for me. The first incident happened 2 evenings ago, as I was on a long bus ride home from Vivo to AMK. I left Vivo after an appt that had a 50-50 chance of closing. I did all I could and gave the client the info she needed. The point is, I was sitting in the bus, attempting to read a book, but my mind was focused so much on my income, my clientele, my work progress. Basically, I was worried, again. I was thinking of who to call, when to call, how to get referrals and all. So I just prayed to God about my worries.

Miraculously (well at least to me I thought it was indeed a miracle), an sms came in from an old friend whom I tried to arrange for an appt with a few months back, but to no avail. Her msg simply read "Do you have insurance that is like a savings plan?". I was so happy when I saw that msg coming from that old friend of mine.

To me, that was a sign that is telling me that God will provide. Although I know this case from this friend probably aint gonna be too big, I am glad enough that it was sent to me at such a timely manner. I thank God for it.

The second incident happened just this afternoon in office. I was sharing with a fellow colleague, whom I hardly meet, about one of my client's medical condition. I also went on to share that I also have the same condition, which is scoliosis. In my case, it is a inverted S-shaped spine. I shared that I didnt need an operation on my spine coz the lower back's curvature counters the curve at the upper spine. Thus, it looks like my body is straight upright and not tilted to one side. I also shared about the occasional pain on my lower back when I stand for too long or when I do crunches on the floor, or when I carry heavy stuff.

His reaction was quite sudden. He told me to go into an unoccupied office room and led the way very swiftly. He told me to sit with my back fully supported by the chair and to take off my shoes. He shared that his wife's left shoulder pain was instantly cured when a fellow Christian friend said a prayer for her at their common friend's wedding. As that friend was praying, he also held on to both her ankles, which were slightly misaligned when put together with both legs stretched straight out, due to some upper body's misalignment which were causing the frequent shoulder ache.

Miraculously, everyone present saw one of the misaligned ankle move slowly into a position that had both her ankles meet exactly, bone to bone. The 'patient', my colleage's wife, also felt a 'click' on her shoulder. Similar to that of a sinseh pushing back your joints to its proper position. From then on, the shoulder ache never came.

As my colleague held on to MY ankles and said a prayer. I closed my eyes and repeated the words in slience. I felt the same sensation in my head as I did back at the Global Day of Prayer event where I stood up amidst the crowd, being a youth below age of 25, and had many people praying for me. These were the 2 times I felt such physical intensity in my head. I really expected my scoliosis to be healed there and then. But, it didnt.

The point is, through that experience, not only do I thank God for the love that my colleague has shown to me as a fellow sibling in Christ, but also His message to me that He is indeed real and here for me.

I asked God after that if it was really important that I have a straight normal spine, and the answer was clearly a 'No'. I used to want it coz I was slightly embarrassed by it esp when I go tanning in my bare min outfit. LOL! Now I know I shld just embrace it and not feel bad about it.

I know I am taken care of. I also know I have to work and not be lazy. Laziness is currently my no.1 enemy. If u are a prayer warrior, may I request that you pray for me in this aspect. Thank you. =)

Very Random Thoughts/Actions

I am in a dont-feel-like-doing-anything mood again. Just for tonight. I drove to office to leave some stuff which I absolutely need to work on tmr, so that I HAVE to go to office early in the morning tmr.

Instead of just staying at home and doing nothing, or just driving down to office simply for the sake of driving, I picked up my skates and headed down to ECP to skate for a few km. My mind was a blank when I was fighting to keep up the constant skating speed, as I was skating against the wind direction. Kind of felt better after that. I dont even know why I am feeling so EEEEyYAA now too. U know what I mean?

I dont think I will touch my beer tonight, although that'll put me to deep sleep. Feeling like a blob of fats drinking beer and tea and eating oily food, and not exercising.

Anyway, some really good videos from youtube, introduced by a close friend.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=In5uec02E8U -- If you love children..

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sCV8kD068mE -- Upcoming mega star, Xiao Jing Teng. I so dig his voice and intensity of his emotions when he sings! I watched his performances on youtube until 5am last night. Spoiled my entire day's schedule coz of that. I am so ill-disciplined, I know.... But he is THAT good.