Officially BROKE but Richer

Credit Card Outstanding Bills: $936
Due Date: 7th April
Status: BROKE

Not forgetting that I will be not be receiving any income for the next few months. I am really gonna jia loh dee and drink water for every meal.

It's a viscious cycle isnt it. You work so hard, u play as hard. For me, I just drink and drink like a cow. And I do all that just to destress from work, the frustrations. To momentarily escape the helplessness, lack of direction etc. I end up working to pay for the vice that was effectively brought about by the work in the first place ... That's life for so many people. How meaningful is that?

I should kick the habit of drinking now that I think I found a better form of relief. It's free, portable, highly accessible at anytime of the day, and it's as alive as you want it to be. It's the bible I'm talking about here. I never saw it as the LIVING word of God. The bible to me was always the storybook about a particular person who walked the earth some donkey years ago. It never occured to me as a form of communication with God. Well, I never had such inclination to wanna communicate with him to start with. That in turn, was coz I never saw Christianity as a relationship with God but as a religion full of dos and don'ts.

I think I've grown quite abit since I joined the workforce. Mentally, and more so, spiritually. I hope every young adult would go through the same period of doubt, helplessness and unfulfilment. Then will they question their purpose of existence and go in search of the answers behind their questions. I believe men in this age will have to fall hard in order to find meaning in their lives. But it surely is a better alternative if they could find God without the falling hard part. Whatever it is, I hope at least the people around me, my friends and family, will all find peace and joy in their walk with God. I pray that I will never stop walking with the Lord, and that my faith will get ever stronger with each step that I take.