Been pretty busy these 3 days, meeting people, preparing sales presentation, preparing cases, reviewing polices, learning up abt products, calling pple etc. I got so bogged down by these processes that I didnt even bother to stop and reflect on what the heck I was even doing all this for. Yes I do it for the income, for the experience that I need, and more imptly, coz I find energy from speaking to people. Sounds self-centered? Damn right it is.

It is so easy to get off track and lose focus on the bigger picture. I will not explain further coz if you know what I mean, you know what I mean. If you dont, time will show you what I mean here. I am just really tired now and I want to sleep.

In times like this, I will momentarily wish tat Adam & Eve didnt eat that damn apple, and that butter trade was still happening and that money didnt even exist. But I know these are useless thoughts that are a pure waste of time and energy. Undeniably, I still have such thoughts every now and then. Difference from then and now is that I am more aware, and I learn to fight these thoughts and get it out of my mind asap. I know it can eat a person up without even he or she realising it.

Well, I am learning to act and think like an adult. May God give me strength to do what's best for Him and me.