Many things happened since I last blogged. Alfred's friend, Aidan, passed away in a bike accident, while his girlfriend is still recuperating from the multiple surgeries on her spine and lungs (I think). I finally gotta meet more people, including ex-colleagues from the airport for my job. And I finally finally got my laptop from the PC Show. Thanks be to God for the timely provision.

I am supposed to be calling people up now for appointment, but as usual, the phone 'weighs a tonne' and I just cant make myself do it. ?! My group manager just told me this morning that our business is all about activity. ALL. Si liao, I am inactive. i.e. no business, no money. I think I need to hang out with more motivated and positive people. Fly with the eagles, and not drown with the ducks.

So much goes through my mind everytime I think of what I should do as a life planner. I have to reason my way out of thinking that I am meeting people just to get my hands on their money. The fact is I want to like people more than their money. But some people are so ugly (character) it stops and demoralises me from doing everything that I know I have to do. So no matter how much reasoning I do to motivate myself, I dont get cracking. Sounds so damn stupid, if you get what I mean.

4 mins to 7pm. I have 4 mins to bitch before I pick up that big fat phone. I cant stand it that I am worrying about the silliest things when all I have to do is, just do it and shut up, bitch.

GOtta work.