There are so many reasons to give thanks to the Lord today. First of all, I saw the grace of God when I saw a different worship leader on stage today. It was supposed to be my new friend AC who was supposed to lead worship today. I assumed from his blog that it was a pretty hard time for him this week as he had to prepare for worship etc, but I did expect him to lead worship afterall. To my surprise, the lady that took over actually did so coz she knew AC was having a hard time with his family problem etc. Thanks be to God for such loving and helpful friends. =)

I met up with an ex-colleague from the airport after church today. I had the intention to somehow get her to do biz with me. But it turned out that I was unable to due to her medical conditions. My mind was somewhat pre-occupied with the thoughts of how to get to get onto the topic of insurance. I prayed to God that I would have a smooth transition somewhere somehow during our conversation. I also prayed for myself to be sincere towards my friend and not be so biz/money-minded. Guess what, I really did not at all think abt my problem i.e. the need to do biz with her so that I will earn outta it. INstead I was so fixed on her and whatever she was saying. I actually felt burdened as she poured out her burdens and worries, well, basically her life up till now. Instead of getting her to buy something from me (partly distracted to do so as she has medical condition that prevents her frombeing insured at all), I felt this push to spread the word of God to her. I felt that was the only thing that could help her go through whatever she was going through. I could have just made an excuse to leave and end the conversation there and then, but I thank God for making me think less of myself but more for others. This is exactly what I wanna do, and I am glad I was able to make this first step.

I realised I am truly blessed. For the first time in my life I was able to listen to people without passing judgement. I realised I have learnt to appreciate people much more for who they are rather than stop short by stereotyping them. And since my knowledge of the world is SO miserably small, stereotyping just narrows my perspectives further. I basically become more and more narrow minded and self centered. BUt I thank God that I am able to really be interested in those around me, to love them as my fellow sisters and brothers and listen to their side of the story, whether or not I think it is right or wrong. Anyway, who am I to judge if what they did was right/wrong. I am no God, so far from it.

Besides that, I thank God for the life I have led so far. I've lamented on how not very smart I am compared to some of my peers. I also lamented about my family's social status compared to some of my peers. I also did the same for having to work my ass off for people, awful mean people who should die and burn in hell. BUt when I hear and know of people close to my heart who have gone thru much more, I couldnt ever imagine myself in their shoes, going through what they did. THese are times when I know I am truly blessed. I'll feel ashamed at the same time for bitching about life, which in fact there is a whole lot more for me to give praise for. Human beings are just weird creatures. The negatives always seem to come in multiples while the good always seem to come singularly or not at all (or so it seems), doesnt it?

Life is really not bad. Thanks be to God for friends, family, love and life.