It's my favourite day of the week again! I didnt go to church today coz I wanted to spend some time alone with God in my room. I thought I would take a nap in the afternoon too, like I always do on lazy meaningless Sundays in the past, but I stayed up to get some work done. I finally have a fixed daily schedule that I am comfortable to adhere to. If I follow it closely enough, I think I will be growing quite well as an individual.

My daily schedule will be put into action tmr. One of the agenda of the day is "learning time", which according to my definition, has 3 sub agendas. Namely, "Motivation", "Knowledge" as in financial wisdom, and "Skill" as in skills needed to get the job done well. Tmr I will start off with Knowledge and Skills.I am more excited aboutlearning up on the latter coz there's where my interest really is. I reckon myself to be more of a Relationship person than a insurance person. Someone once told me that insurance agent is also a highly paid social worker. That is if their focus is not on the money (lest they called salesman already) but on the people they meet. I shall pick up some books or surf online for insight into psychology of selling/buying. Therez a whole lot of reasons behind why I chose to start on this topic but I shall leave that to another time.

Well, all the desire to learn up and grow for this biz welled up over the weekend as I was thinking thru what a friend mentioned in her blog, about being passionate about what to do with our lives. I realised I was facing the same situation as my friend. Her, or rather, our issue is that we have been pursuing certain goals in our 23 good years of education etc. We have also attained our goals. But the thing is, for me, I was never passionate about anything to the point of obsession or even burning desire. For example, a professional sportsman will eat drink sleep and breathe their sport and be really good at it. But I have never really done that for anything. Not even for my CCAs, my studies (I majored in Marketing, but I am not interested to have a career in that), my relationship with people, with God. Never, there just never was that passion within me.

But I want to be passionate about what I do which translates into being passionate about living and life in general. Since I chose to be in financial planning industry, it shall be greatly involved in who I will become and how I will become who I will be in gradually. My life will evolve this way because my life is a gift from God and I have prayed about my calling into this biz. I know I will die one day and I have a lifespan which is not within my control. But I know that I was not put here to just eat and sleep and pass time and just experience life. THat is meaningless and fruitless. I want to be friends with people who need friends who truly understand and care. I want take care of their fundamental needs i.e. finances. And most of all I want them to see that they are not their own God and that there IS a God out there. This is what I want to be passionate about.

I know it's not going to be easy but I also know that I will NOT be doing all these on my own. I got my answers to the questions and doubts mentioned in my previous blog entry. Miraculously, they came in many different forms and from many people. But all that summed up to ONE answer which made it clear to me that I am moving on the right direction. I just pray that I will remain humble as I grow and learn.

Thanks be to God for friends, family and Life.