Honestly, have you ever questioned if anyone really cares about you? When someone calls u up after a few years, and they ask how u are doing, do they really care?! If you didnt fancy a person whom u have been trying to 'get' for such a long time, would you care about how he/she is doing right now? If you didnt have the means to tell your friend how u were doing from time to time (e.g. thru blogs, msn chat, sms, weekly church service etc), would they bother to find out how u were doing? So really, who really cares for those they know? Who would have the energy and discipline to make it a point to find out how EVERYONE they know is doing at any point in time?Everyone has their own fair share of problems to solve, to handle emotionally and sometimes physically. Who can we always turn to when we have ANY problem at all?

I realised how blessed I was when I met up with new friends thru my bf just a few hours ago. We can never get enough of having more friends, at least that's what I think. I am very glad to befriend these very fun loving and real people who are loyal and honest. They were not there to make my feel less miserable about work but they certainly made me feel valued as a person and as their very good friend's gf. It was just that simple. But I was happy to be valued.

My point is, it doesn't matter if no one really cares for me. No one can take care of others unless they can truly take care of themselves first. And the fact is, many people have so much problem of their own that they arent able to even take care of their own matters to have enough to care of others at the end of the day.

What matters is our own perspective. It's really all in the mind. I have come to terms with how the world really is. It is basically a truly ugly place with many sinners and sin all around me in my country, my home, everywhere! God didnt create this, men did. God gave us choices. God also gave us a brain to think and to decide. He didnt make me study marketing so that I can only do that for a living. I can do whatever I want and I can earn as much money as I want, only if I want to. He didnt create problems that we face on a daily basis, human evolution did. So with all this shit that men created for himself, the result is self-centered, money-centered and wordly success-oriented dreams that people strive to achieve. But who cares how these idiots are doing?! No one except themselves! SO why should I be upset when I am under-valued, misunderstood and ignored when I try to help? I don't blame these people.

Ok I had a few glasses of beer and these are just some thoughts that came to my mind as I started blogging. I was rather discouraged for a few days because I was not making any sale and I was somewhat 'ashamed' to make phone calls for appts. i.e. call reluctance. Thank God for sending my mentor to address this problem. I will do better tmr. Life is too short to regret too much.