I havent been thinking alot these 2 days except about work, how tired and unwellI am and how much I don't feel like working at all. I think I am quite silly to plan to work everyday and not have a full day of rest. Even Jesus rested on sabbath day. So I should too, right?

What's more exasperating is that, although I work everyday, I don't see the money! Show me the money! Not that I am money-minded, but it is a bread-and-butter issue and I can't get ot out of my head. I fret everytime I have to dish out that credit card coz I know I am increasing my debt. It also irritates me when I have to ask my mom to top up my ezlink card for me, and I am already 23 years old. I should be supporting my mom, not the other way round. But I can't seem to find that constant source of motivation for me to keep going. Maybe I think/feel I am sick, more than I really am. You are what you think isn't it? hmmm, I don't like the lazy me.

Conclusion of the week:
1. Alot of procrastination towards the end of this past week. I hope it's really because I am feeling lethargic due to this damn sore throat.
2. Therefore, I really need to work harder.
3. But I shall work harder without touching my Sundays.

I also realised that although I get energy from meeting people, alot of my energy is also taken up because I am always talking. I have alot of getting-used-to do around here. WORK IS NOT EASY. Laziness is such a sweet temptation.

Basically, you can probably tell that I am beginning to bitch about work. I lose focus easily and have a strong tendency to be lazy, i.e. to take the easy way out. Lord, help me grow and leave this inferior side of me behind me, please.