Honestly I haven't really been working very hard the past 2 weeks. I did have a unsettled feeling during these 2 weeks because I was disgusted by my own laziness and lack of self-discipline. In fact, I felt so bad I thought I would have a very hard time getting back the momemtum to start calling people, meeting people and closing sales.

During those times, I prayed and complained to Jesus and I was easily moved to tears by songs that spoke of His omnipresence. A close friend of mine also reminded me to use every spare time that I have, praying and reading God's words instead of just sleeping and not doing anything useful.

I realised that I was unhappy with myself and my progress in work because I simply did not meet the standards/expectations that people have of me as a young planner. I am expected to 'chiong' for work, keep myself busy by either meeting people or calling people, and ultimately, to hit a year-end target of $x.

Although I was feeling less burdened over the weekend, I was still worried over work as I went to church today. It is a weird feeling when I know, as a matter of fact, that God will take care of me, but I do not really believe or accept it because I still worry about it. But today's sermon based on Daniel 3:1-7 really taught me a few things that put my mind at ease.

Firstly, I was amazed by the scope of the lessons that we could learn from the bible. What seemed like a ordinary factual narration of what happened many years ago, was in fact filled with lessons to be learnt in our modern society. It reminded me of practical critism which I did back in JC literature classes.

Secondly, the issue of gaining control over our lives and being aware of the distractions and worldly powers that surrounds our lives, enlightened me on the worries that I have been carrying with me for the past 2 weeks.

All in all, it made me more excited about attending the Disciple course, which I have signed up for, and also Sunday services. =)

Yup, so me now happy girl looking forward to a fresh week of work. I also hope to progressively be on a 'broadband' communication mode with Jesus. Apparently, I think I am still on 'dial-up' mode... Boo..