Today has been rather relaxing for me. I got up late and postponed a meeting with my agency manager till after lunch. And the only appt for the day didnt eventually turn out to be what I expected.

I know some people do not even respect what FPs do. It is as if we are the free-est people around with nothing much to do except to meet people over coffee, meals, beer etc. My appt with this ex colleague turned out to be a dinner with 3 other of his colleagues. Afterwhich he was too tired to even continue with a proper session. My first thought was, financial planners must seem so 'fan jian' to him. I thought I was rather accomodative, to the extent that it seemed like my time was at his disposal.

I know it is self-doubt and inferiority complex fighting its way into my head again. But I am glad that, somehow I enjoy such times coz now I know that the only thing to do is to seek Him. And I am starting to, slowly but surely.

It is so easy to complain and just dwell in my own sorrows. But it feel so much better when I remind myself that, "He wants to show you things that only you can understand by living what you are living, and by being in the place you are now."

I like to remind myself everyday that I live in hope and not in failures. =)